Updated: Mar 26
You were only 17 years old with a lifetime of possibilities ahead of you, Katie. The pain of losing you was unbearable in the beginning; my heart was shattered into a million pieces and and my mind was consumed with grief. How could this have happened? Why did it have to happen to you, my sweet girl?
As I struggled to come to terms with my loss, I found myself in a world that no longer made sense. Nothing could prepare me for the overwhelming pain that came with losing you. The emptiness in my heart was palpable, and I felt lost in a sea of sorrow. I saw the world as an unfair and painful place to be.
For a while, I didn't know how to go on. Every day felt like a struggle, and the tears never stopped flowing. But eventually, I knew that I had to find a way to honour your memory, Katie. I knew that I had to keep your spirit alive in my heart, even though you were no longer with me.
As time passed, I began to find comfort in the memories we shared. I remembered your laughter, your smile, and the way your eyes sparkled when you were happy. I've held onto those memories tightly, knowing that they were a precious gift from you.
Katie, today I still miss you more than words can say. My world is still different, but it is not so bleak. I choose to see the you in the sunshine and live my life for you. I do this because I know that you would want me to live a full life, find joy in every moment, and to cherish the love that surrounds me.
Losing you was the hardest thing I've ever had to endure, but I am grateful for the 17 years we had together. You will always be a part of me, and I will always love you, my girl. It was an honour and a pleasure to be your mom.
(by Lisa K. Boehm)
As a grieving mother, I understand the depth of sorrow and anguish that comes with losing a child. It feels like a part of yourself has been ripped away, leaving an empty and lonely void. As a mother who has walked this path, I want to offer my compassion and support to all those who are grieving the loss of a child. Please know that you are not alone and that there is always hope. Allow yourself to remember the love and joy that your child brought into your life. They will always be a part of you, and their memory will live on forever.
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